Male • 22 • North Chicago , IL • United States
Status... Single
Orientation... Straight
I'm here for... Friends Dating Serious Relationship Networking
I'm into... Writing Photography Music Film and Video Acting Activism Art
I'm working on... A couple of modeling projects, as well as some acting and writing of my own.
My sites... http://www.myspace.com/djmyth1
My Profiles... http://www.myspace.com/maddhatter1
Music
- ,I listen to just about everything except Country. I grew up in a family that loves all sorts of music from reggae all the way to J-Pop. So expect to hear some sort of diversity on my Myspace page. Don't be surprised if I bust out some Punjabi Music or some Amuro Namie (yeah. didn't think I knew who that was did you?),
Film
- ,I like all of those crazy demented movies like: Titus,The Crow,Interview with the Vampire,Bram Stoker's Dracula,Beetlejuice,Rocky Horror Picture Show,Nightmare Before Christmas,Love and a .45,Blue Velvet,Cecil B. Demented,The Lost Boys,Stigmata,Identity,The Bourne Identity,& Eternal Sunshine,
Books
- ,Naruto | Psychic Vampire Codex | Gothic Sports | Vampire Kisses | Bleach | Gatekeepers | The Giver | The Getbackers | D.N.Angel | Trigun | Peacekeeper,
Artists
- ,Rumiko Takahashi | Jay Axer | Rose Besch | Tite Kubo | Rem,
I'm here at QL to basically share a piece of my mind with the people. This is also my means of therapy and release from all the drama. I guess you could say, I'm pretty emo at times, but it is all in good standards. I am also the hopeless romantic that strives for love, but at the same time has to set goals for the future that lies ahead.
I'm Broken
Dec 19, 2008
It's crazy really....I was meaning to post this yesterday, but due to some difficulties, that was not possible. Yesterday, I made my decision to go BACK to the therapist for a refresher, but it turned into more than just that, I found out that I had more problems than I thought. And here I was thinking that everything was fine. I was SO wrong. I found out that the majority of the things that trouble me are driven by the fact of me being alone. I've been alone all my life to the point that when people want to get close to me, I don't know how to act. I usually just push them away.
Okay, so...how do I correct this issue? What is my next step? I have been wondering this for the longest, and I haven't came up with a answer just yet. That is why I am typing this, hoping that someone may be able to help me. I just feel so broken you know, like, what do I do now? I'm trying to get things together, but I just fail to accomplish things. Am I intended to fail?
Thinking about things like this have affected my health. Just yesterday I had to go the hospital because I had an asthma attack. It was so damn cold in that hospital. I don't think they believe in heat or something. I was keeping myself occupied on my PSP for a while, until they actually started coming back with some results...Now i'm home with nothing to do, my hands are sore as shit from the IV and i have to take the same inhaler i've been taking. BULLSHIT! I've been telling people what happened, and they treat me like i'm some ancient and feeble old man, on life support. damn people. i hate people sometimes.
12/19/08 06:00 PST
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Author: KRISTEN M SACCARDI
My Christmas wish for you, my friend
Is not a simple one
For I wish you hope and joy and peace
Days filled with warmth and sun
I wish you love and friendship too
Throughout the coming year
Lots of laughter and happiness
To fill your world with cheer
May you count your blessings, one by one
And ... Read more when totaled by the lot
May you find all you've been given
To be more than what you sought
May your journeys be short, your burdens light
May your spirit never grow old
May all your clouds have silver linings
And your rainbows pots of gold
I wish this all and so much more
May all your dreams come true
May you have a Merry Christmas friend
And a happy New Year, too.
There was nothing exciting going on?
I've got lots to tell, especially since I finally started high school. I have to make sure I do a video sometime soon.
how have you been?
its been so long, but i think i will be here for good this time.
what have i missed?
I dont think you should go as a pirate, its rather cliche, now go as a Vampire Pirate and you got an awesome idea, but damn it, I gave that Idea to you! Damn it!
Well anyways, figured I would leave you a comment. Adios.
Its as if writing it down actually gives you the answer to the problem.
Or at least enables you to start understanding it.
I dont think that you should worry all that much about finding the right person for you, theyll show up soon. :]
And I know i dont really know you or anything, but i love reading what your thoughts and insights are, and they inspire me. And i know this is old, but it doesnt hurt to comment on it.
What i though about when i read this was, If that someone for you has found some misfortune in finding her way to you, then whos to say she wont as easily pick up that trail again?
If theyre meant to be with you, they will be. Its not a matter of losing out or missing your chance. In the end, everything falls into place anyway, so I dont think theres anything to worry about.